Amazing Courage

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1st Exam in a WEEK!

The final semester of the pre-clinical years is here and the very first exam of the semester is due in a week from today!

What have I done so far? Hospital visit and did pathology rotation and saw a couple of autopsies done. Good experience, but I will have to reconsider my thoughts about becoming a clinical pathologist and whatnots. Then did an interview in a surgery ward. My patient seems to be very lonely and looking for someone to speak to or someone to listen to him/her. Patient is an elderly and I am not very shy with elderlies as they remind me of my grandparents. Having taking care of grandma as well as talking with my grandma makes me quite comfortable while I am doing it. At first a bit awkward as there is a cultural barrier as well as a bit of a generation gap and I don't have a clue what the patient likes. But when I found the common ground, the conversation felt like I was talking to my grandma all over again and we had some laughters. One thing I won't ever forget is the moment when I saw the patient eyes sparkle and saw the inner joy. It was unlike any other feeling that I have felted before. I thought it will be hard to leave my patient as he/she might feel sad when I leave due to lack of companion. Surprisingly, it did not happen that way, instead it seems that my patient enjoyed the time. It probably gave him/her the hope for another visit like this from the student or whatnots, only he/she knows. The patient sent me off with a smile and I felt the warmness and sincereness in it.

That aside, diuretic, antihyperlipidemic, antiangina, antihypertensive, antiarrhythmic, inotropic, hemostasis, respiratory drugs were learned. Haven't mastered them yet, but hopefully by Monday next week I will be. Then learned more about the Microbes: pneumonia causing, heart disease causing: the good olds Streptococcus pyogenes, pneumoniae, Haemophilius influenza, Mycobacterium tuberculosis! Oh and the VIRUSES! Orthomyxo, Flavi, Filo just to name a few. Then come the worms and other parasites. You probably guessed that I learned heart and lung pathology as well.

Time to go back to my study again folks. Thanks for tuning in.

Marriage

Marriage!

It is so complicated that I don't even know where to start. So lets start from what others say about Marriage! Some says that it is when 2 persons get together with a celebration. I can see the logic in that, of course, you need 2 persons to get married since marrying yourself will be quite unproductive. Celebration part is just basically DECLARING to your little niche that that PERSON is yours. Then I ask myself, is it really that simple and am I making things too complicated? Or was I not asking the right question to begin with?

However, others say marriage is not just 2 people getting together, but instead it is 2 families getting together tying knots. That includes sharing of wealth, warmth of a family, to escape from loneliness among others. I like this answer better than the former. It sounds more complete and looks like a lot of thoughts has been put into answering it. Here come the problem, how do you decide which is more important? Not everyone shares the same priority. To me everything is equally important. None should worth more than the others. However, if I must prioritize them, this will be my list in the order of importance: 1)Love, 2)Everything thing else. Very simple because without Love from people around you then, it sort of defeats the purpose of escaping loneliness. Furthermore, without Love, you will hardly get any Peace in your life. I am sure many people still say "Money can get you anything!" and I am sure that one of the thing cannot be Peace. Even if they can, the Peace they get will only last for the duration they can spend their money on. Once they stop spending the money, poof goes the Peace. Never can get the eternal Peace. Personally, I don't see the point in living a life that is not Peaceful. Yet many people rank others higher than Love. Maybe that's the reason why we have such high divorce rate in the world today. Most of the marriages today are based on the something other than Love. Once that foundation of marriage has been struck with mayhems, the whole marriage collapses and ending up with a divorce. That is if the foundation is something tangible material such as money. However, when that foundation is Love, the marriage doesn't seems to collapse as easily or won't collapse at all. In here you have to be clear about the Love, because most people nowadays use Love like they use water or money. The real value of Love has been so dissolved that it doesn't even have any special meaning to some people. When I said Love as a foundation, I meant the "True Love", the one that you are accepting he/she as a person from deep down without any influences from his/her superficial looks. So first ask yourself whether it was the True Love or not, when you said your marriage was based on Love yet it collapsed. Maybe your so-called Love was tainted with others and wasn't the True Love that I am talking about.

So follow your dream, and wish you all have a very lovely life ahead of you.

MEANINGLESS COMPETITIONS

People are just unbelievable sometimes. I am sick of dealing with people in general. When you are being nice to them and living humbly, they think you are a dumb@$$. There are so many (meaningless) competitions in life and that is what I hate the most about life. Because of all those competition, people are suffering, wars are going on and PEACE is getting further away everyday. I learned that NOT everyone deserves your kindness equally. Even if you want to treat people equally, I will suggest not to do so unless you are ready to be stepped all over you. You should always keep those people who like to RUB in your face any time they have a chance, in check at all time. Those are the one who will have MEANINGLESS competition and ruin your peaceful mode.

On that not, leave me the F!@# alone, I just want to live peacefully till I die. If you want to compete or compare or trying to get better than me, DO IT QUIETLY and DON'T F!@#ING come rub in my face with your pitiful knowledge or achievements. NOT that I am scare to compete with you, but I just don't want to waste my precious energy in a useless competition. If it is a worthy competition, I don't mind taking your challenge. The only person you should compete against is YOU! Try to get better, stronger, wiser... whatever -er than the you from the day before. That is the only meaningful competition I see. Being said that, you should get the idea that I probably won't even bother to compete with you. I just want to lay low and stay in the low key, I don't want to be F!@#ING famous.

3rd Day!

First of all, today is the 3rd day of classes for the semester. Tomorrow will be the first ICM lab! Looking forward to it! So far so good, info are more integrative than new so it is going well so far. The countdown begins and T-99 and counting down that is!

99 more days... Then Comp... then STEP, then VACATION, then Rotation, then WHO-KNOWS-WHATS-GONNA-HAPPEN!

Can't wait to be over with school and start practicing. I want to serve the under-served community!

Riddle

It has been two and a quarter year since that day! One and a quarter years since I last saw! About 3500 miles apart yet it is very close to my heart!

Feel free to take a shot at this and post your answer (if you think you know it) on comment space!

P.S. Can be more than 1 correct answer!

1st day of 4th Semester

I have a pretty good feeling about this semester. T -103 days and counting down! So far had cardiopathology and cardiomicro. Will be followed by cardiopharm I believe. Along with the fun-filled cardioICM. 1st day went well so far. Enjoyed what I learned today. Looking forward to the end of semester or the 19th of December!

Played basketball today. Knock-out/Bump whatever they called it. 5-7 times champion! Wooo Hooo!

Missing the loved ones from afar. Thank you all for being there with me thick and thin. Thank you for giving me the courage to keep walking on this road. Thanks to you all that I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I just hope that is not the on-coming train though! Either way, with all of your encouragements and support, I will be able to push back if the light is an on-coming train! Miss you all and LOVE you all!